hey young world...

(my computers had a virus which is why i've been slighty slippin , but i'm back )

here we go :

always love baby,

chels <3

back to my roots

Alot of people don't know this but I used to do ballet up until I summer of ninth grade... it was a big part of my life and I kid you not lil mama had skills:) I quit because I was sacrificing so much, and the hours were long,painful & hard. But now I miss it so much. And seeing this video(which I stole from devin) confirmed it. Those moves I can do of course they won't be so polished because of my lack of stretching and praciting but nonetheless I can definitely produce alot. So with that said I'll be back on my grind, enroll in my old classes & get back to where I was ..

Debbie Allen . :) I'm coming back baby !
(lol , I hope my mind doesn't change)
*look at the video

let me get real for a second , is that okay ?

I was watching Tyra last week and the episode was definitely a controversial one .. is gay the new black ? The episode had me realize a shit load of things about the ignorant and closed minded person i unknowingly was. For so long I not only thought but believed being gay was a choice and somehow you could UN-gay yourself if you wanted to , but then this man said " do you think I want to be ridiculed ostracized and humiliated everyday , who wants that if I could take the easy way out and be straight and not have to put up with the whispers and stares everyday I would , but I cant simply because this is who I am ." And with that ONE statement I opened my eyes and understood exactly where he was coming from . I would also justify my unwillingness to accept the gay/lesbian lifestyle with the bible , but how big of a hypocrite does that make me ? Because I damn sure have committed some sins and my life isn't by the bible one bit. Please don't get me wrong I've never been a gay basher or hater , I've always believed to each is own but I didn't understand why someone would choose to be that way . Now that I see how it's not choice I'm finally content with the issue , and all the narrow minded thoughts are out the window ... sounds cliche and corny but I've opened up a new leaf :) I'm not God and I cant tell someone how to live there life the "right way" because I got some skeletons in my closet. I apologize for my small minded judgements I once had that chapter is in the trash , a clean sheet is open ... (* please realize this was not the easiest post to make cause I kinda had to come clean about how I felt , so nonetheless it's posted .. )

I got right with myself , who's next ?

always love,

chels

do they know how cutee they are

baby baby baby

owe.

chocolate high

they tasted like shittttttttttt .

IF - Rudyard Kipling

If
If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or, being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master; If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with triumph and disaster And treat those two imposters just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to broken, And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch; If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; If all men count with you, but none too much; If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run - Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

- so much truth in this poem , lovee it

xoxo

chelsea

i lovee these lyrics

man fuck these niggas

ima spare everything but these niggas

& fuck these bitches,

i swear i care about everything but these bitches,

i dont care i so what these bitches

& i put chels above these bitchesss

lil waynes my guilty pleasure:)

123,

chelsO

LOOK LOOK !

i'm in love , first day of school eh ?

( the last 2 are the same i'm just tryna figure out what color i want , suggestions? )

....

slide your panties to the right

lmao , thought that would be a catchy little title . anywho these are some pictures i wanted to post a couple of weeks ago but i didnt have my usb .. now i do , so here they are :)

strickly love ,

chelss

fab baby!

fabb .

loves it & him

this will be a must see

i'll be watching mos def

but now that i'm older all childish things end

i hate growing up . well i mean i guess i like it it's pretty damn inevitable thats what happens in life but i really sometimes just want things to pause and rewind go back to the simpler days when i woke up carefree and didnt have to feel as though i had to prove myself to people . so on that note here's a list of some things i miss from those days i just cant get back

to be a child again :

- getting presents on Christmas and actually not know what i was gonna get

-recording moesha when i wasn't home ... on VHS

-the rugrats beat before it came on

-reptar

-running around saying "we don't die we multiply" because of bebe's kids

-themed overalls

-my 1 million ponytails

-skates , and my scooter

-tee shirts under my clothes

-milk pouches at lunch

-a new Disney channel movie every Friday night

-having to come inside before the streets lights were on

-doing the butterfly and the bounce to every song

-free & aj

-having a bedtime

-b2k & scream tour

-lil bow wow when he had braids

-when skinnys and chucks were for punk rockers

-not worrying about anything but when a new episode of all that was coming on

* the days when it was fun to be a kid , before the jerking began and the mohawks took over the world when playing outside was more important than getting on aim shit before aim , myspace, facebook,twitter,blogspot . . .

but i'm 16 now , so let the bullshit roll in

P E A c E

are we human or are we dancers

i'm bored .

had a nice day though , woke up made 50 dollars (dont ask) just know it was legal

went to dosh's house talked about alot of things i swear she has the same mind as me :)

came home . . .

and now here we are ,

hmmm

anyone watch top chef masters tonight i missed it fill me in guys

oh & am i the ONLY one who misses these days

laguna beach still has my heart <3

12:56 am , wake up world

cheese :)

why is everybody sleeep ? it's summer time get up and do the chicken noodle soup

ok maybe not , hah whatever

chelsO

hey now

today i was on myspace and i read a quote that said "don't regret something that once made you smile" hmmm , interesting i've never heard this until today so i started to think about it more and i realized that i'm gonna stop saying how i wish i wouldnt have messed with so and so and i was so dumb to do that , i regret going out with him blah blah blah bullshit .

when i was in it i was happy as can be & i resented the way it all ended therefore i resented you and the relationship , am i apologizing for the things i said and the way i reacted NO you deserved alot of the karma you're getting/gotten but on that same note you made me smile time and time again & alot of good things came out of that badass situation i've just come to a point where i can say i'm happy without you BUT but no longer do i REGRET the fact that i was happy (from time to time) with you

no hard feelings eh ?

but i moved on lol , love you reno

peace

nevermindddd , listen .

still kickin'

still dont have my usb cordd

real housewifes of atlanta :) LOVE IT , and omg sharee is all i have to say

oh and have you heard eminem's diss to mariah carey called warning ? if you havent you tube it now , haha shit is funny but it goesss !

so does her's though

yea i'm done

xoxo,

chelsea