fuck mannnn

i left my usb at my dads house , & i took so many pictures last night ...

this shit sucks

so I'm mad now & i won't post again until i get it lol , unless i have one of my many epiphany's

until then

love love .

chelsea

that's NOT my nameee !

Thats Not My Name - The Ting Tings

i love this shit

senior year video ?

so today i thought about how cool it would be to record my senior year on camera . i figure I'm always the one taking a million pictures of everyone when we go out anyways . so how about i like literally narrate the whole year , maybe not everyday but most days . all the highs & lows fun times and horrible times . then prom and everything that comes after , well the rated PG things lol

all the outings and the dinners we have and then graduation :) at the end of the year once everyone comes down from there highs I'll got all my footage and highlight everything you know make it look really gushy get everybody crying and what not ... i think it's a go ,

now i just need to by a camcorder and get things rolling

love love,

chelsea

i'm not sure you guys have heard the new's but

T.R Knight is officially leaving greys anatomy
i picked up his cover on entertainment magazine today and read the article on why he chose to leave , and he said he made the decision because not only did he get less airtime then all the other characters on season 5 but he wasn't happy with the way things were going , and it seemed like him and shonda rhimes ( the writer of greys) have a different view on what happened when he said we was ready to come out publicly . yea i guess only those two really know how that was said i fully understand why he left because he simply wasn't happy and no amount of money is worth your happiness but a 14 million dollar contract a top ten television show whose ratings are better than ever , 180K per episode those kind of opportunities are rare , so rare in this day & age he even said himself this is any actors dream hmmm just not his I'm assuming
okay if you have guessed it already george omally or georgie as i call him was my favorite character on the show and I'm so so so sad he's leaving . i literally went down my contacts telling people the "tragic" news and no one cared lol , nonetheless I'm excited about the Sept 24th premiere & for the record everyone izzie isn't dead :) i dont know what i'd do if izzie and georgie were both gone ,
yes greys anatmony is my life :) :) :)

i'll be a T.R. Knight lover forevaaa baby <3
xoxo,

chels

some food for thought

i just bought a book called finding me & in chapter one it asks a question that stood out to me

what makes you so special ?

what makes you shine like a light ?

And what makes you matter ?

"you have to know the answer to these kinda questions , at some point we all gotta know what makes us matter"

after i read this and went over it in my head i pondered and thought and thought again , what makes ME matter ? i think we all need to stop and answer this question and to me it was kind of hard i'm still trying to get the words together but i'll take a shot

what makes me special is my big heart , i'll give everything i have to someone who has nothing my willingness to accept people ALL people for who they are and not what i want them to be , my gratitude for life is what i believe makes me matter , along with a host of other traits in all honestly it's a hard ass question to answer & i encourage everyone to ask themselves that

love always ,

chels

tr (U) e

bueno :)

i had alot to blog about but i'm feeling really badd today , so i gotta make things rather brief

- ORPHAN comes out today , gotta go see that

-thinking about getting a tattoo going down my side that says mazel tov ( good luck/ fortune)

-i'm about to remodel my room

-gotta apply for schloarships

-my friends are great

-need to finish up this online class 43 topics outtaa 219 lmao i hate algebra 2

-on a hunt for my combat boots

-dosh's mom is funny

life is lovely

-- chelsO

i love you chris

i think his apology is sincere and heart felt , i'm a fan & i'll continue to be one . all you guys are stupid like saying this was rehearsed blah blah blah chris brown does NOT owe us SHIT , not an apology not anything but his music . ( by the way dosent he look beautiful in this video) sexy mann :)

i'm team chris brown forever

love love ,
-chels

a special i love you ,

IE . we call each other pinky :) lol , i smiled when i got these againn I LOVE YOU CHLOE . alot's going on with me , and i was super down today so she sent me these

nothings forever ,

xoxo - chels

welcome to the blog world

http://www.complexmessages.blogspot.com/

my friend dosh just started a blog , check her out & follow her , i promise you wont be disappointed

harry potter is a must see

most people wont know until i tell them , but i'm a huge harry potter fan i've seen all the movies & read a couple of books and last night i saw the half-blood prince and i totally absolutely loved it even though the ending kinda sucked , well it didn't suck i just thought it would end in another way nonetheless go see for yourself

peaceee EASy

....

i just accepted reality even though i LOVED living in that fantasyso longg .

xoxo ,

chels

niggas aint shit

excuse that N word i'm only using it to prove a point .

okay here's my beef , why do girls say stuff like "i don't need a no nigga they all dirt." i swear that's a pet peeve of mine everybody wants somebody i don't care how much you say you don't. cause uhh all that i'm miss independent ain't gone keep you warm at night .

oppps.

i just think that it's okay to let love find you , put the wall down allow yourself to be happy i say it because to many of us already have this preconsumption of the opposite sex & its only bound to get worse as time goes on. what i think we tend to forget is most of us are just BIG KIDS , TEENAGERS, IMMATURE trying so hard to be on a " grow woman" status failing to realize you're not there yet . STOP trying to play this role in waiting to exhale when you still live in a cinderella land .

...

oh yea and this goes out to the guys to ,

chelsO

oh malon

she always gets me thinking . one of my oldest & best friends malon adollarormore.blogspot.com posted a interesting quote that caught my eye

“The concept of physical beauty as a virtue is one of the dumbest, most pernicious and destructive ideas of the western world, and we should have nothing to do with it.” Black is Beautiful is a “white idea turned inside out…Concentrating on whether we are beautiful is a way of measuring worth that is wholly trivial... and preoccupation with it is an irrevocable slavery of the senses.”

wanna know my stand point ?

look out for my book that i'm writing oh yea did i mention my first 3 chapters that i worked on for months mysteriously wound up missing ? if i EVER see those pages printed/ posted anywhere i'm coming for you with heat , & i mean that with everything in me . so now i'm starting it from nothing , but hey it's gonna me most def worth the wait

PeacE

it's been to long

my lovely mother chose to turn the internent off to "teach me a lesson" & defentiley a lesson was learned it's pretty damn hard to function without it , i have not been able to blog , do my online class, get on myspace or anything else for a freaking week . yea my iphone helped here & there but it just wasnt there same :(

but i'm back now , & with a bang !

i have some belated birthdays to give out :

monday , july 13 happpy birthday denton i love you & tarnie lol

july 14 , happy birthday to my bestfriend jordan :) love you too !

i just had to shout them out on my blog . late and all i dont care

... adios

Happy Birthday Mommy

happy birthday mommy you have to be the greatest mom on this earth i love you puppy :)

yes my mom and i call each other puppy lol. dont ask !
family :)

chelsALOT .

peace baby !

yo yezzzy .

i dont know what the fucks up with that title . haha hello bloggers ,

lets see i have a billion pictures to post but i'm not home nor have i been for about the past week or longer ...i dont have much to talk about today RARE i know

so this post was extremely pointless .

love love ,

chelsO

jaded . . .

it's times like these i tend to question my sanity.

if i give these muthafuckas the world it just wouldnt be enough, whats a person suppose to do ?
i'm not one to bite my tongue, but i have no words to say ....

MJ's memorial

if you didnt see it , you defentiley missed out . need i even say more ?

RIP MJ .

peace EASY

my sister's keeper

as i was saying last night , i went to see this movie and let me just say it's the the BEST movie i think i've like ever seen other than finding nemo :) haha in all seriousness you MUST take the time to go see this . it's not your typical movie & the previews do it no justice. My sisters keeper needs an oscar nomination like asap ! alot of great acting was done in this , blah blah blah i can go on and on forever but all in all PLEASE check it out & if you already have , leave a comment and let me know how you feel about it

all love,

chelsea

a la today

i went up to westchester to see my boyfriend & others , and then he treated like i wasnt even there & shit . then he said sorry apologized for the CRAP he pulled , long story kinda

• then i went to the tattoo shop with my friends jordan got his lip pierced . i felt werid about being in there and not getting anything , but hey whatever
• then we went to starbucks and this lady gave jordan & i 2 venti carmel frap's for free :)
• went to the store, got a black and mild
• smoked it
• went to LMU to visit friends , annd back home it was

well gotta make it short FINALLY about to go see my sister's keeper

see ya after i return .

LOVE . LOVE

chels

they say . . .

life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way and how much of it was your fault ..

yea to bad i dont nor will i ever think that way

more or less my thought process goes a little like this : things are destined to change it's the way of the world . why bullshit over who you've lost along the way i'm screaming this until my demise YOU LOSS SOME AND GAIN ALOT MORE .. & if it was your fault fuck it everybody messes up from time to time

AND REMEMBER

you signed up for it the day you embarked uponn "living" VS "existing"

think about it .

always love ,

chels

random post

it's 1:04 am ,

I'm up aiming my boyfriend & watching poetic justice with my cousins , i know I'm late but i enjoyed 4th of July my aunt had a huge party and i tried nuvo oweee plus my favorite cousins out here form oakland for the weekend shes so funn i love her but sadly shes leaving me sunday >:o anywayys last night i

hung out my cousins in corona annd it was nice we went bowling then out for a girls night and had dinner at the cheesecake factory:) thenn we finally got back at around 1 something . defentiley enjoyable

BUT

of course i'm missing los angeles & my boyfriend buhht hey family always comes first

pictures will be up later on , obviously i'm rambling so until tomorrow

love,love .

-chelss

venice beach:]

henna's i really like them , uhmmm i'll make it permanent come 18 whooop !mines

aleshas

SUMMER 09 , peaCe

life's good

my summers been chill actually . just enough to keep me going nothing too extreme i think its because i don't go to parties anymore when it started off i was with my friends everyday no doubt but now things are a little different , i see them sometimes & hang occasionally because i been about me and my boyfriend , its kind of bittersweet actually BITTER cause ya know i love my friends but they've been such a huge part of my life they're like my everyday and SWEET cause my friends understand and don't mind my absence ahhh they're the BEST & since i finally have found a boy whose feelings i genuinely care about and come to love yes i said it :)

ahhh the joy of my first love .....

- waking up and going to sleep thinking about him

-being with him everyday and NO moments dull

-NEVER running out of things to talk about

-the simple "i love you" texts i get from him throughout my day

-the kisses on my forehead ... the hickeys (oooppss)

-the occasional opening of my eyes when he kisses me & surprisingly he's looking at me too:)

-a feeling of comfort when i'm around him & finally being able to be myself

you know i can go on forever , and i really didn't wanna make a post about this stuff but i read a blog and someone was saying what is love ? and how can you define it, so i figured i'd write about it. i think love is a word that has millions of definitions it's whatever you feel love is i don't ONE exact definition call me crazy i just know what i'm feeling and its all cause of one person, it's something that sneaks up on you and once you're in it the feeling is or should be great & to have someone feel the exact same way you do makes things THAT much better

now i don't know what the future holds or even how long this will last but i'll ride this roller coaster to the last stop and smile all the whole way no regrets just lessons , i hope this post is not one i'll look back at and shake my head but hey we'll see what LIFE SAYS .

xoxo,

chelsea