bet awards rundownn .

hey there , sorry i've been gone ya know been busy with my boyfriend :) he's GREAT btw .

nothing sexual either if thats where youre minds at

YEA UMMM.

anywho , bet awards 09 i must say was something else it was not without some minor glitches of course but it was enjoyable and i loved how the whole awards was centered around MJ .

i love alicia . she's so humble and down to earth & she look flawless

loved beyonce's dress but her performance was kinda boring to me i was expected sasha fierce dont get me wrong she sounded lovely as always but i just wasnt feeling it. And Jay-Z other than being a sexy man :) killed it , gada love D.O.A.

trey songz , johnny gill, and tyresse tribute to the oj's was nice . i think tyresse did the best & who didnt love when he brought "jody" back haha baby boy :)

keri hilson had me shaking my fucking head , it was ok at first other than the fact neyo nor kanye performed knock you down w/ her when they were both there and the ending was ridiculous better luck next time sweetie.

ahh "lady of my life" beautiful song , beautiful man LOVED IT .

fuckin love love love soulja boy & his performace "turnnn ma swaggg ONNNN"

i was pleasently suprised with this performance and travis barker was there sexyy .

& who didnt feel the realness of MJ's death when janet jackson came out whew that and neyo/jamie foxx's performance "ill be there" had me in tears

...peace ,

they say true legends never die .

& i fully believe that , so i just say physically he's gone but his spirit will remain FOREVER. I'm such a huge advocate for true talent and thats why i have nothing but respect and homage for Michael Jackson .

So today i'll continue living my life and bump these songs throughout my dayy ,

-Billie Jean

-Dirty Diana

-You Are Not Alone

-Pyt

-Man In The Mirror

-Butterflies

-Black or White

-Remember the Time

-Scream

my favorites :)

Rip 1958-2009

THE LIFE OF A LEGEND .

there she goes

cant have me without jordan :)great day with all my favorite guys .

daniel

jordan

and last but not least my boyfriend :)

until next post ,

-chelsO.

stop, uhh REPEAT .

i've been listening to my ipod ironic right since it's on my phone , but like i hardly ever listen to the songs even though i add new ones daily . i'm rambling .. my point is these songs have been on repeat alot lately & if you havent listen to em ' .

• if today was your last day- nickelback
• human- the killers
• second chance-shinedown
• there for you-flyleaf
• everyone knows-john legend
• tell him- lauryn hill

& i can continue , but those are just whats been my company lately :)

peace .

farewell junior year

poof vamoose son of a bitch! am excited about being a senior , i plan on having the best year of my life but you know what they say about plans they never work out the way you want so all i can do is hope that i have a kickass senior year:) simms.
ALSO .

my cousin graduated i was so happy for her & all the rest congrats 09:]

oh yea hellooooo summmer ,

(sorry i'm late on the post , other obligations)

stay tuned.

xoxo,

chels.

excuse me chanel iman

may i have those shoes ?

dear jordan

theyres always a light at the end of the tunnel ,

first off i love you .

i hate to see you all stressed out about the future & what will become of you , I for one know you'll be fine i guess that's why when i hear you i just laugh because i know that you have the drive and determination to do whatever you put your mind too, i know i sound like a mom or some shit but it's so true. Your like my bestest friend in this whole world and i will settle for nothing less than great from you. Remember that the path that everyone is seeming to take may not be the path for you , march to the beat of your own drum and fuck what the world says , hey we never have a never will give a damn what society thinks of us anyways :) . To hell with all the 3.0 's and the Uc Irvines of the world you do you , just like that ... just that easy . I cant wait until we are sitting in your house over looking the beautiful ocean below us smoking a fat ass cigar laughing about all this , but until that day comes know there's no progress without opposition God will always have a way for you if you open your eyes and take it , and if you still cant see that way then make your own ..

xoxo ,

chels .

my philosopy

ask no questions,hear no lies

I, Too

I, too, sing America.

I am the darker brother.

They send me to eat in the kitchen

When company comes,

But I laugh,

And eat well,

And grow strong.

Tomorrow,

I'll be at the table

When company comes.

Nobody'll dare

Say o me,

"Eat in the kitchen"

Then.

Besides,

They'll see how beautiful I am

And be ashamed

I, too, am America

fuck i love this!

hey there !

i guess i'll go chase the sun ,

ms.giovanni

i've been reading her poems all day long , goodness i love this woman :)

pure & beautiful

so i put the acoustic version of " she is love" on my blog & just cant get enough of how much i love this song , i guess it does something for me not that like for some odd reason it makes me cry cant quite figure out why, call me a simp whatever this song has to be my life story in 3 minutes , tell me how ya feel about it :) or not ...

haha PEACE !

yea buddy rolling like a big shot :)

hellooo , i'm still alive i just been busy

anywho summer starts next week and here's my plans

- chill

-get my tongue pierced

-my nose pierced ( like pinks)

-smoke out my pipe

-bonfires with my kick asses

-hermosa beach

-downtown la

-dirty feet w/ ayanna

-quality time with my sweetie reno

more to come ....

best summer ahead ? indeed :)

xoxo ,

CHELS.

best i ever had

a box of gobstoppers & a talk with juice . .

day couldnt of been better

relationship madness

i just cant seem to get this right , and i'm trying Lord knows i am .

HELP !

xoxo ,

confused .

in america

i'm sick of this , people walking around with their hands out EXPECTING you to give them something in return , the reason for this post is because the other day i was coming out jack and the box and this man nicely asks can i spare a dollar for something to eat , and i said well why dont we just go in and i'll get you a meal.

OMG.

you would have thought a plane just crashed down on his face, he looked at me so surprisingly and said " GIMME A DOLLAR" , and i said for what crack ? , and he calmy said yea smh i couldnt believe it i was in so much amazement that he actually said yes ...i mean i'm glad it was the truth but goodness it was all crazy to me . i only blogged to say this , & i've said it before almost everything is misleading .

think about it ,

peace

fml .

edible penis

funny times

peaceee

favorite group , as of now .

i'm so in love with this group parachute, there song she is love is on my blog now ..as you can hear lol listen to the words you guys .

i really dont know what it is about this song that i love so much but i do

plus the guys arent to shabby :)

haha , peace & love

the pursuit of what ?

happiness ?

no not the movie , i just mean lets see when will everyone be happy .. NEVER , the reason i'm blogging about this is because yesterday my friends & I were talking in starbucks and someone said i wish everyone was happy , and i said i for one dont .

if all we ever know is happiness then we dont know pain , if we dont know pain we have nothing to learn from ..no mistakes to correct , we have NO growth .. so i think sometimes we all need the heartbreak, the lost friends, the drama, the bullshit because without it we are forced to stay at the same level forever & falling down aint falling down if you cry when you hit the floor ..

so to sum it all up ; even when things get hard

EMBRACE YOUR STRUGGLE

WELCOME THE TRIUMPH

& SMILE WITH YOUR TEARS

because believe me theres a blessing in every lesson .....

nothing but L O V E .

--cheLs,

June . Amen ,

almost summer , then i'll be a big senior :)

i was listing to my cousins ipod & i absolutely cant stand miley cyrus UNTIL i heard her song the climb i love the message , heres my favorite part :

there's always going to be another mountain i'm always gonna wanna make it move always going to be an uphill battle,sometimes i'm gonna have to lose,ain't about how fast I get there,ain't about what's waiting on the other side it's the climb ...

see i ALWAYS give credit when it's due no matter how i feel personally .

alsO .

today my bestfriend jordan & I had one of our many heart to heart convos and boy oh boy was it a good one ,

i'd seriously share everything but because so much of what was said will be in my book , i'll save it until i finish writing it :-p

bottom line , nobody on this earth in my opinion is obligated to anything , in my eyes all i have to do is stay black & die so shit on what society has to say about anything so many customs have been believed and accepted in our generation & no where are they set in stone .

whoopps i guess some things just i cant hold in , lol

PEAcE .