My Poem "I"

Sun bruised skin the crowd looks outward while I look in.

Subline thoughts run thru my mind, what will become of I ?

Dreaming of my future brings peace of mind but when I open my eyes reality hits and it feeds me no lies

opression,anger,hate, and excuses now, what will become of I ?

Can't pretend anymore shit has gotten real,wounds left open not even time can heal.

Questions burning my brain pure and unrated me in the raw same question what will become of I ?

Fucked up situations cant deny stress of even cry about what will become of I.

When it's all said and done my life isnt over and until that day I lie on heavens floor

I'll pack up my thoughts,questions and doubts put them in my back pocket and let God be the ultimate judge of what will become of I .

& thats all she wrote

best rapper alive, sike

fuckin sellout has any1 heard his wana be "rock song" smfh

who agress , disagress ?

bullshit

is what we livin in. whats jack w/o jill ?
me and belul haha, really those are our nicknames :)

i miss her man, welcome bakk cake & shit thursday !

god is LOVE .

PEACE

according to me

i've been pretty busy ; mackin & hangin

& reading No Disrespect, great book smiling because i'm blessed
hanging with my tooNasties ;)
drinking nasty ass starbucks

going to candy stores yumm
celebrating cousins 18th birthday thats her ^ lol.
that's better .

going to dennys late nights

EVEN BETTER NEWS

i passed the CAHSEE ;)

xoxo ,

chelsea

chels.i.am

i'm the misses , lol i think he's adorable or maybe it's just his swag :)

bittersweet

Now let me start with the bitter, todays not only January 20 it's the day an old friend Breon Taylor was killed at a party, today makes a year since she's been gone and it makes me remember that day when i got the news, all the tears, all the sad and confused away messages,her candlelight vigiwal,and her funeral. Of course this brings extreme sadness but i can smile knowing that she's in a way better place watching down on us,

Rip Breon we miss you 5.20.92-1.20.08

and sweet because WE DID IT,now we know the the sky is the limit.

Simple and sweet, President Barack Obama

surely i didnt forget

the road wasnt easy, lets not forget what today is all about

ONE MAN

ONE DREAM .

maturity

so , it's honestly werid how i've grown these past few days , okay i know how can you become more mature in a matter of days , shall i elaborate? i think i shall .. so every since friday i've been feeling strange vibes from friends and instead of approach the problem i assumed it would get rid of itself. But as the next day passed then the next one i realized what is the point of all this ? Drama? why? It was a bunch of bullshit really , so i call my friends and address the problems which were small incidents where things got taken the wrong way . Bottom line everything was cleared up . And if i had not taken the simple step as to calling them then friends would have been lost .

&

this is why i say i've grown because the chelsea a couple of weeks ago would have been like fukk it who needs them knowing that inside i'd be hurt , so sometimes YOU have to take the first step in making things right or you'll be assed out .

nothing but blessings

XOXO ,

chels

& i intend no disrespect ,

i'm reading sister souljah's : No Disrespect , its a great book in the sense that she talks about real issues within the african american community and how we disregard the many problems we have to go through. She speaks about the unspoken and I for one am enjoying the hell out of it. Knowlege is power and this book is teaching me something new daily.

in other news,

i get my license next month =D

notorious

seen it.loved it. nothing more to say and thats werid i usually have at least one negative thing to say about a movie..hmm not in this case i give it two thumbs way up high & if you guys havent checked it out yet get to that shit :)

nothing but blessings .

chels

soul's on fire

hola. whew finally it's friday wont be back at whs until wednesday . Lord knows i need a break sometimes it just feels like im in this alone sometimes friends can hurt you the most ahh

my souls on fire , & i gada break f r e e

below are some pix i took earlier this week i was waiting on someone to send me the rest but hey it's all good .

basically i love this guy, my bestfrwn jordan & dannie's in the pic love him juss as much

the infamous "boots"
lil mama :)

dlo .

Peace ,

it's tuesday , school's in

yea yea i'm late school started yesterday & i mean honestly it was just like any other day to me except i saw new shoes and clothes everywhere . people running around flashing their new Lx's ans whatnot haha anyways countdown only 5 more months until the best summer of my life or so i think strach that i know but for now i just have to focus on living my best life like oprah says

session's in kids.

SHE ie (me) in the hat that burritto was great

downed it really quick , uhmm whose lil mama in my picture ?

Bay Area

so i flew to oakland this weekend for my cousins sweet 16 but i didnt enjoy myself at all no need to mention details or specifics i just wont be back uhmm ever

also i didnt feel as though i needed to photograph this wack trip so pix from her party are limited

arrived in oakland

seen my cousins cake it was bomb it was designed to look like a chanell bag & it did

ie . her names shannel lol the cake had a handle and zipper whew loved it

birthday girl

pissed Off , i was ready to go
fuck this"hypy" shit i wana be in La:)
arrived at the airport, the scenery was beautiful snap snap

all smiles because im back on the plane to La :)

peace .

Self Expression

is beautiful to me in every single way i just dont understand how people can just judge you and whatnot if your just expressing yourself. Okay the reason I'm posting about this is because my family went absoulty crazy on me when i said i wanted my nose pierced .. they didnt have much of a problem until i said i wanted it to be like this

basically just like pinks, you know have an actually ring. So after they heard that here come the insults : "omg that's for gay people" "wait are you gay" "that's ugly your ruining your life" "you're to pretty for that", etc. I mean honestly im going to do it regardless but it just made me see how ONE thing can change peoples whole perception of you. They know me and know that i'm the farthest thing from gay but instead let something as little as a piercing alter there judgement smh . Then came the "i think you should get" .... this that & the other . Seriously am i ruining my life NO way . Self expression is beautiful , so feel what you want ima do it anywaay !

OMG .

major throwbacks all these pics are O L D